The world can be an unfair place at times, but your lows will have their compliments of highs.

I'm leaving. I feel like thats what I say to everyone. Next week I'll be in London for a week which I am quite excited about, Portobello market and the nightlife should be pretty sweet. I am excited to dress outrageously, I hope it won't be bitterly freezing. I am going to meet someone named Roxy. Were staying in her flat because she's Tarryn's cousin and I hear she dresses mad cool. It should be a good time.

Proceed to the day we arrive back in Paris, Tarryn and I have around 24 hours before we leave for Marrakesh, Morocco for a bit of sun and camels. I can't wait for the HEAT. This weather in Paris right now is literally turning me into an ice queen. I always have Tarryn's black fur coat on and the air always sounds like a ballerina's music box has been left slightly ajar. The sky is velvet grey. Anyway, I can already picture the colors of Morocco. Slate blue and blazing orange. I want to bring my floor length, faded cotton skirts from California and long, gauzy summer dresses. Tarryn and I are going to swim in our guest house pool and eat long, spicy luxurious meals and ride camels in the desert. We are also going to walk through the mountains and chill in the huge flower fields. I can't waitttt!!!!

I am also venturing to Goa, India this June and July for two months of volunteer work with young Goan children. I will explain more about this later.

"Strangers on this road we are on, we are not two we are one."

Francesca Woodman

“Every human being experiences his or her own desire; it is part of our personal treasure and, although, as an emotion, it can drive people away, generally speaking, it brings those who are important to us closer. It is an emotion chosen by my soul, and it is so intense that it can infect everything and everyone around me. Each day I choose the truth by which I try to live. I try to be practical, efficient, professional. But I would like to be able always to choose desire as my compassion. Not out of obligation, not to lesson my loneliness, but because it is good. Yes, very good."

Paolo Coelho, Eleven Minutes

You do it well, I'm under your spell

valentino circa late 1960's

alber elbaz for lanvin

Incantations

Antique photographs,

((When you bring someone into your mind every day for years, after a while they just come into your thoughts because you're so used to bringing them there))

Ideas must come from somewhere, inspiration is needed toujours.

Can you have an idea without first being inspired by some other idea?

Paradoxical, really

Artistically, nostalgia is necessary- the forgotten all the more important

Emotions. I guess they're there for a reason.

I could just float away.

Smell can trigger such vivid memories

Then I recall my childhood,

Alee's soft purple sheets and our power ranger pajamas from another life

Now I can bail, I can spend, I can say fuck you and I can fight

Rose flavored champagne? And diamond rain

Enormous eyed children that just don't speak

We cry out of passion, New York, oppressive heat

Life is exquisite.

be cheerful the holidays are here!

I would like to watch this bunny hop around on my bed. I think it would be presh.

The worn-in cozy pants and super soft sweaters below are perfect to wear on a cool day in Miami in December. I want to roll around in daisy fields until dusk wearing these clothes.

I adore this kitten. Real or fake? No one knows. Obsessed. It's name would be Benedict and it would play with Meliz's puffy, tiny, orange persian cat named Barbara.

I don't know who makes these shoes but they are curious items. Lovely, in a slightly odd way.

Enjoy the cold weather and wrap up in cozy cardigans, big feather pillows, mexican hot cocoa, and watch the snow fall (((I WISH IT WAS SNOWING)))

an outfit for- New Years at Plaza Athenee

New Years at Plaza Athenee by csilverman featuring Christian Louboutin shoes

Items in this set:
Tiered lace dress, 2,365 GBP
Helmut Lang Smoking wool-blend blazer, $575
La Perla Underwired tulle balcony bra, $240
Myla Lavinia tulle lace suspender belt, $49
Elle Macpherson Intimates Operetta Bikini - Elle Macpherson,..., $35

joys of the good life

So, what it do baby boo (unicorn lovers and dream fairies)? yes, that is hijacked from Alee but honestly it sounds better than whatup, whats good, etc. Anywayzzz, lately I've been marveling in the Miami sun, the cheap, cheap American dollar (I Looooove it), and lavender- clearly my favorite color (btw these are some of my fav items of the lavender season), also I am looking for some frilly lavender socks to pop out over my grey doc martens that look exactly like the ones below ((only grey)). I specifically want the panties and bow from below as well. Those sticks aren't half bad either.

Sitting in my bed now, Its got me thinking about beds and luxurious ones at that- the bed in my room is about ten inches off the ground (good in the first place, because i looove to be high up) it's got four posters draped in huge pink roses, dark purple silk, Indian orange iridescent fabric, a huge purple and feather dreamcatcher, a pink ostrich boa (think along the lines of Satine's elephant in Moulin Rouge), my childhood cutie lion, a few crystals and Indian charms and lavender Pratesi sheets (the best in the world according to me), along with that it's covered in a huge white down comforter (genius in Miami, right?) and on top of that ANOTHER down comforter with a reversible dark pink and orange duvet. The pillows are huge and feathery and I basically feel like a princess as I lounge in it at this very moment. I think it's very important to have a comfortable bed because besides from that fact that it is where you spend half your life (and if you're me you spend three quarters of your life) it's where you dream, and dreams can't be as lucid, colorful, and delicious if you are not in the most luscious bed possible. Another thing that really adds to my room is the Ula Darni lamp above my bed. Ms. Darni is a very special and talented artist who makes gorgeous hanging lamps and chandeliers and hand paints magnificent, colorful flowers and designs on the inside of the lamps. When they are illuminated the colors are brighter by tenfold and just all together fabulous. Below is a photo of a room which I just adore, I think its Gala Darling's or maybe Rita Konig's.

Missing Paris, I somehow came across in one of my blogging extravaganza's this utterly delicious looking macaron, yes macaron hamburger. It's the size of a quarter and tastes just like a normal burger, but bite-sized, precious, and tiny like my favorite French dessert.

Hats can be cool to rock if you have the right style, but I've been on the fence about them for a bit actually. I really like the ones featured below and I was out shopping the other day when I came across a fabulous black lace rimmed bowler kind of hat with a bow on it. Can you say TOTES PRESH? I didn't get it at the time because it was a bit pricey but now I'm thinking I kind of want to go back for it. Don't topple over if you wanna rock the Marie Antoinette hair!

So anyone who knows me knows that American Apparel is kind of the staple of my closet, mainly because it is so easy to mix and match, the colors are DIVINE, the clothes fit like a glove and they are not crazy expensive. Recently I heard that they were having an AmAp rummage sale in the Design District on Friday so of course I am going, but 5,000 people have already RSVP'ed making me think that this is going to be some sample sale-like day with a CRAZYYY line and even nuttier hipsters. Oh, and the best part- whomever can scramble for what they want gets it at the HUGELY discounted price of $2-7. YES, folks you are hearing right, 85% off. My heart is tingling from the joy of that statement. I can only hope they have the hot pink lace leotard with a snap bottom when I get there.

Now people, don't forget to adopt a bunny if possible and glitter yourself daily!

fairy goo and glitter

First off- check this awesomeness out..Raz showed me and I think this plane could really be coined magical~

http://cocoperez.com/2009-12-09-fly-the-friendly-skies-with-hello-kitty

Also, I've been thinking about the connection between indigo children and the rainbow family of living light lately and I think I would really benefit from going to one of the rainbow gatherings over the summer (a rainbow gathering is kind of like a gathering of a ton of hippies/hobos/dream lovers/explorers and sky searchers for one month out of the summer. They go camping in the forest, set up teepees or tents, build campfires, eat organic delicious food, play music, attend yoga classes, dance and take drugs.) I think this could be a highly beneficial summer choice. Also, I'm thinking of maybe escaping somewhere to write and explore creativity completely alone..kind of Thoreau-like.

I'm super excited to know about the Northern Lights and I'm really hoping to make a voyage to Finland next semester to see them and stay in an Ice hotel. Belle taught me about them and told me my closet reminded her of a clothing version of the Northern Lights.

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/1r43nI/www.travelphant.com/2009/09/coolest-place-to-stay-and-see-northern.html

I'm also totes mcgoats reconsidering fashion school apres SLC.

I need to buy a rainbow maker but this time a real one with crystals. I'm also debating between getting myself the Blackberry Tour for a holiday gift or the new iPhone. I've always been an iPhone girl and I'm leaning more towards that.

I think I may go to Grassroots in Ithaca with Amy this summer as well.

I'm so stoked I got this nice new chair from Olivia today for my Paris room and its beautifffful and wooden and leather and just luscious.

I want to wear red lipstick all the time. I think I may make it my new look. I've also gotten really into thigh high stockings since I've been living in Paris. They were kind of olden days-y for a while but now I'm thinking of bringing them back. I love the lace and delicacy of them. Despite the absurd prices (40 euros for a pair of tights) I adore Wolford.

I really want to eat some oysters. I've never had them.

Also, does anyone know where I can locate a converter that lets a French phone plug into an American wall? I really should be going to sleep now because I have to be up at 5 am to catch a flight from Paris to Miami. I will be in Miami for the next month. I wonder what I shall do to ring in the 2010 New Years? I can say that I am disappointed to let another year go by and miss the ball drop in person in NYC.

Have a Cartier filled first day of Hanukkah and don't forget to enjoy some very strong eggnog!

I shall leave you lovely readers with this.. the first of Joni Mitchell and David Crosby and the rest are my own creations.

paris is in the background, bonjour miami

Since I've been in Paris I adore lingerie.

And lambs, but that's not a Paris thing, that's a life thing.

Time to bounce.

Photo cred- Craig McDean (last one)

We sit and I watch you blow O's

italian cities of interest

tuscany (siena)- exceptional vino (fonterutilly)

lake como

portofino

amalfi

capri

genoa

BTW-new RIHANNA CD!!!

shimmering gold

Look up at the infinite blue

Left is river, right is river,

A bridge to get you past

Twelve birds flying a bit away

It should be colder but it isn't

It's late afternoon, dusk

This world feels like magic,

if you turned you should have

There's too much chocolate

You know what to do, when you move it moves too

(description, peut-etre?)

An autumn day in Paris

drunken.relaxation.laduree.parfum.sweetwaiters.butter.saintgermain.expensivewine.tarteauxframboises.

latest most gorgeous discovery:

charmé

I was just in Amsterdam where I nearly fell over with happiness every time I stepped outside. I ate things like this-

Then I went to Barcelona which was quite pleasant in a different way. Night life there is wayy crayyy- so is this

autumn blew the quilt right off of the perfect bed she made

There are sailing ships that pass

All our bodies in the grass

ahh..music.

I feel newly calm

more on edge, but seamlessly made- together and ends tied

I can barely see the flame glittering behind me

Pale blue and gray everywhere else

I suppose I've been drawing all day, I feel kind of dreamy today

Caught up in books, journals, sketches and the Almost Famous soundtrack

I like the idea of bodies drawn onto photographs

I can't think of an image that would work with this particular blog update

but maybe this?

hm. interesting.

Anyway, I'm not sure what last night really consisted of..

Too much wine for sure.

That would be thanks to Jess- pshh

Oh by the way, I forgot to mention that I'm in Paris

It's been awhile.

I feel like I need to go draw more

peace.

kittens and children

I feel like all I do is play with kittens and small children

I feel cuddly

I am 20. 

I watched fireworks on a beach

Whiskey spilled onto the sand like sticky molasses

The kittens smell the coffee brewing in the mornings, or no, its the little girl 

Sometimes I think the little girl is like a kitten

Since I got to New York it has been movement

Travel

Tomorrow

Its 3:43 am in Paris

9:43 pm in New York

blush violet-

handle bar moustaches

eerie, michigan

lake eerie

miami, fl

keegan

Why are we not in paradise? (sarah nicole)

The candlelight warms the room, no the apartment, it's so small the entirety is glowing

I was just thinking about you, and you were- (in response) made a response

Things line up I guess? 

Tangled in my own rays of sunshine, seaweed wraps summer sea-salt

Flowers, frosting and late night trysts

So many chapels, so little spirit

Catches in the summer (the fireworks were explosive)

Tilting heads in the orange glow, summer evening

Movement plays webs with the shadows in the light

Inconsistency. 

Insurmountable inconsistence is completely accurate. 

((Listening to fall on my knees- Sam Amidon))

whatup nyc..

summer 2009- new york city

Come so far..

As I sit here in my bed in Miami, I contemplate how very far I have come, literally, in the past 10 days

When I began in New York I was starry eyed, excited, perhaps dusty?

We pulled away and as the speed picked up so did our imaginations, instinct for something new

From New York we cruised through desolate New Jersey, quickly passing through to Pennsylvania

We stopped in Erie, PA on our first night,the sky was illuminated with the lights of fast food restaurants

Other than that we pretty much did what we always did, that being the comfort

What surprised me the most about driving cross country were the great farms, absolutely extraordinary

We ate at an old warf in Erie, right on the lake, I was so sunburned

You could almost break the sky into soaring blue seperations, blinding, so bright but yellow- sunshiney

Then Kalamazoo, Michigan..the place I chose..

But that day of driving was pure pleasure, nothing but wind and forest.

We pulled off to the side and found these breathtaking woods, there was a sand path

We walked down it and it lead to to the most gorgeous beach I have ever witnessed.

On the Great Lake Erie.

Coinciding with the forest

We skipped stones, found sea glass and one of us left her phone behind

It was almost too stunningly perfect

As we kept going we reached Middle America, we were searching for something..

What?

We stopped in Chicago which was absolutley brilliant

Two days

Gone

Then the Wisocnsin Dells, waterparks. Dirty and crowded.

But how beautful the Wisconsin landscapes are, how scenic

Finally we were at our final destination in Minneapolis.

Minnesota, I can say with 100% certainty has the nicest people in the country. Period.

Now I'm back in Miami.

Bizarre.

I feel like there is so much more to say to describe the road trip but I will say it was amazing, more freedom than you could imagine.

It feels so fucking good to have nothing to HAVE to do, nothing to anticipate.

I felt suspended in time, hanging in a land where the sun doesn't set and the beauty stretches on forever.

I know sunglasses fuzzed my vision and joints clouded my mind, but each moment was a tiny memory.

Folky:

Feel Flows- The Beach Boys on Sunflower/Surf's Up

"I'm gonna make a lot of money, then I'm gonna quit this crazy scene

I wish I had a river that I could skate away on"

-Joni Mitchell, River